Stumbling And Rumblings..

I just want to write.
Since I’m not a person that will express himself through oral means
I use words, metaphors, similes – I forgot what I wanted to say
Maybe these words will return in the next two dreams
Or they will somehow ease from the transition of brain to pen to outlet
The combination of the three really isn’t as easy as it seems.

I just want to speak.
I am able to voice my opinions though written expression
Look you in the eyes and give you that beginning, middle and ending
But opportunity knocks hard and I stand speechless in our brief session
Another chance wasted due to the inability to speak, just say hello
Another step in my impending regression

I just want to live.
Free of judgment and able to live proudly with my flaws.
But society carries that ‘perfect’ tag as if they never made mistakes
Chastises me for being who I am and causes me to add more scars
So I hide who I am to give myself an illusion that’s presented to you
But if I allowed you into my world, walking in my shoes you won’t get far

I just want to go.
Away and leave this part of me behind as a distant remembrance.
Rid myself of those that truly didn’t care and live desolate in my being.
No new faces, minus myself from the joys equals no disappointing experience.
Wish you all the best in your endeavors and forget that we crossed paths
This separation from others is relieving and provides my perfect balance

Starring: Cuba Gooding Jr., Terrance Howard, Nate Parker, David Oyelowo, Tristan Wilds and Ne-Yo

Storyline: A crew of African American pilots in the Tuskegee training program, having faced segregation while kept mostly on the ground during World War II, are called into duty under the guidance of Col. A.J. Bullard.

My Thoughts: Although the powers that be didn’t want to support this movie, I feel as thought George Lucas and his crew did a great job telling the story of the Tuskegee Airmen during WWII. The characters of Marty ‘Easy’ Julian and Joe ‘Lightning’ Little showed despite their friendship in the movie, they both had their flaws within each other. Ray ‘Junior’ Gannon’s character displayed that ‘doing what I need to do mentality for my team’ attitude that isn’t often displayed within people today. I didn’t care too much for Ne-Yo’s role in the movie. Or maybe I would’ve rather seen another well trained actor in that role instead of him.

Red Tails shows how a very segregated military operated during WWII and I’m sure that wasn’t even scratching the surface. The movie also displayed how the group of airmen stood up in the face of racism/prejudice attitudes to show that they were finest airmen just like their white counterparts. As the movie went along, you see how things started to change in some ways.

On another note, I’ve notice a lot of people downplaying the aspect of this movie. Of course, if you would like more information about the Tuskegee Airmen, there are books at the library and/or bookstores that will give you just that. The fact that Hollywood, didn’t want to give that support for this type of movie should be the motivation we need to see it. But I’ll end this here as this type of argument will lead to something else and I’ll save that for another post.

Happy New Year everyone. This week’s “Five Things” are brought to you by two persons that aren’t new around these parts. So without further ado, first let me bring back Lorence. You can follow him on Twitter @momentoftru:

1. Chicks will tell you that they’re feeling you, but if you’re not moving at the speed that they want you to move at, then it’s pretty much fuck you. Then suddenly, they have a boyfriend the following week. Which means that they were just trying get snatched up. By anyone.

2. Regardless of what anyone thinks, males and females can be friends without looking at each other sexually. Shout out to Nia (@nicepersonnia). We crack jokes on each other, on other folks, and at the stupid things hoes do on Twitter.

3. Beware of tweet watchers. Folks will not be following you on Twitter, but then text you about everything you tweet about, INSISTING that it’s about them. Then call you corny and lame. But not realizing that it is them that is corny for that. Ha!

4. I copped a yoga ball today. Crack jokes all you want, but that is good for working out your core and abs on your body. I’m trying to get myself back in shape. I’ve lost some weight by controlling what I eat, but now, I need to get it together.

5. I’m drinking some Ciroc as I type this up. Fuck it.

Next up we have Rod and you can follow him on twitter @JustRod

1. First things first… If 2012 is supposed to be the end of the world then I truly believe that Tim Tebow was sent here to stop it. One awkwardly thrown touchdown pass at a time. Thank you Based Tebow!

2. I have officially converted my girlfriend to being a Knicks fan. She was at the Wizards vs Knicks game cheering louder than I was. I feel so proud!

3. 26 must be the magical age when women want marriage and children and stuff. The urge definitely gets stronger when people they know start getting married

4. Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim is addictive!

5. Working out becomes a lot easier when there is something to focus on getting fit for. Cruise 2012 will be my motivation.

If you would like to participate in future “Five Things” posts, just hit me up on Twitter @Mo_Rease and we’ll set that up. Enjoy your evening folks.

Brand new music from the homie Freddie Mac where he and Fuze aim their thoughts on folks that act tough on Twitter. Track is produced by Flawless Tracks, who have worked with the likes of Wale, Rick Ross, 2 Chainz, and more. Here Mac gives a breakdown:

We all know of a few. We’ve all seen them recklessly grace our timelines, full of gasconade. The tweets we read and think to ourselves, “C’mon, you know you’re not doing ANY of those things that you are talking about.” Or the “Ohh ok, you’re a model TOOOO now,” thoughts. Yes, those. Well, it was time that those very same people were brought out and made examples, Also when making examples, who else better to help me point out the obvious without a single care in the word, other than Mr. Team No Manners himself, Fuze B.

I finally made the switch to a much better phone. Just that RIM wasn’t making an significant changes to the Blackberry platform and it was time for a new look.

As the music started to play and the alcohol planned for us to sleep our night away
She began to tell me secrets that were well hidden in her mental diary
Words that caused teary emotions in others as she detailed thoughts not forgotten
Not caring about a reaction, just relayed things that made her fiery
No regrets about the precedent, she kept it moving as she was persistent
Street smart and book smart, so she was able to lavish in the illegal activity
Mama cried when she discovered her sexual interactions with the hard heads
But she learned that from the same woman and her many uncles, none biologically
Her father missing but not on milk cartons but missing from her heart
It used to tear her apart. No birthdays, Christmas, or other parental things that apply
I gave her another sip of the potion as she gossips more about her affairs
Ranted about past lovers and how she stole their soul and wallets naturally
Had ample opportunities to bring life to this cruel globe
But she used 6 Ben Franklins or 12 Grover Clevelands to fix that inconsiderately
The pain in her lens told the stories of x amount of young women past, present and future
That stroll these avenues searching for answers that can only be discovered internally

As her fears become known with each touch
She seeks solace within my language
She clinches my body tight as we lay
Hoping that be the steps to heal the wreckage
I say that ‘things will be alright’ but it falls deaf
The tear soaked eyes reveal more damage
Trying to show her other options
But she says she carries too much baggage

Her voice cracks as she continues to speak
Utters that the endured pain keeps her at ease
Acknowledges that I bring her temporary relief
Even with that info, my soul isn’t pleased
Wasting breath trying to convince her otherwise
Taking steps backwards, I’ll silently disagree
Watching as she gathers her belongs to depart
I can imagine the missing blessings she’s eager to flee

Verse three and she’s still gone
No singing, verbal or textual dialogue
Saw the future within her, wanted a change of heart
Hope for digital love but she sent waves of analog
Got what she wanted, now she’s off to the next
Now I’m on injured reserve, another name to the ‘played’ catalog
Another soul scorned another lesson learned
And with that said, these words are my final epilogue

Okay a new feature that I’m going to try to not get bored with is going to reflect on things that annoyed me during the week. And I’ll ask folks on Twitter and Facebook the same question. Cool? Cool.

1. Parody Twitter Accounts – Now I’ll admit, some of them are funny. Well the ones that hardly tweet. The Boondocks ones started to get annoying because you seen so many of the same ones running around. The rapper and comedian ones are the worst ones. You click the profile and in the bio it will read ‘A *insert person here* parody account’ or ‘I’m just a huge fan’. It’s 2012, be yourself.

2. Repetitive Arguments – Okay we get it: You don’t like black women, you want to get fucked a certain way, you want to be courted, etc. There are other things going on in the world.

3. Washington Wizards – Still winless for the season. Laughing stock of the league.

4. Weave Pieces Floating Around With Garbage – Why put the tracks in your hair if you aren’t going to keep it there. Get those weaves professionally done and stop sitting in your best friend’s kitchen.

5. Tumblr Trying To Scare Users Into Uninstalling Missing E. – Yeah it didn’t work so you’re going to have to deal with use using that plug-in. Sorry.

What annoyed others?

Facebook

Donisha – Liars

Ashley – Work

Joc – Did you want the long or short list?

Celes – A weak ass nigga thats always acting like a BTCH at work.

Lynn – Question: What DIDN’T annoy me this week? =\ lol

Jessenia – Certain people breathing.

Twitter

InnocentTaa – my snot nose co-worker

ReeRee_IsOn1 – Nothing really. I got rid of all my stressors lmao.

F_DeVille – The motherfucking landlord.

DerekIsNormal – People who are over the top for no damn reason.

drkwingduck – coworker!!!!!!!!!

KidKoni – People, money

Good evening readers. I had the opportunity to chat it up with Arlene Marie about her newly released project, Twelve A.M. During our conversation, we spoke a little about her childhood, relationships and her inspirations in music.

Me: So Arlene, tell us a little about yourself?

Arlene: Well I was born in Puerto Rico and lived there until I was 8. From there I’ve lived in Miami, Palm Beach and since the age of 13, in Orlando.

Me: At what age where you introduced to music?

Arlene: Wow… it was at a young age. We didn’t get to listen to the popular artists that were huge here in the States. There was a pop singer named Gloria Trevi, who was huge in Latin American music and she had a colorful style that I used to take after. I would hear her songs on the radio and put on little talent show for people that came to the house. It used to be so terrible. *laughs*

Me: I’m sure it wasn’t that bad. *laughs* so who are your musical inspirations?

Arlene: Mariah Carey was the first artist that I heard when I moved to Florida. After hearing her Daydream album, I started to go back and listen to her older work. Also Brandy plays a major influence as well as Jill Scott, Marsha Ambrosius, Deborah Cox and Faith Evans, who was a great songwriter. Also, I can’t forget Alicia Keys.

Me: That’s a nice list you have there. I saw Lee Treble (Twelve A.M. producer) tweet that you just started singing seriously like six months ago. After listening to the project, I find that hard to believe.

Arlene: Well I was writing since I was young – just didn’t know how to form songs. They would be in poem form but as I got older, I got that craft down.

Me: I first heard you on Nerd Ferguson’s “Sex Tonight” and “Had Enough”, how did those songs come about?

Arlene: Well I was a fan of Unhappy Hour. His flow and delivery was all on point. I told him on Twitter that I liked his music and that he should do a song with me one day. He said that he was looking for a female to do some hooks on some tracks which lead us to doing like four songs together.

Me: I think you two have great musical chemistry together. Any chance of a joint EP like a Watch The Subtweets with a lead single “Niggas In DM’s”? *laughs*

Arlene: *laughs* No, we don’t have anything in the works but that wouldn’t be a bad idea.

Me: No it wouldn’t and if it comes about, I want credit. *laughs*

Arlene: *laughs* I got you.

Me: How did Twelve A.M. come about? What’s the story behind it?

Arlene: Well it was originally supposed to be seven tracks representing the seven days of the week. But then I was continuously receiving tracks from Lee and we started switching out songs for what we originally planned.

Me: How did working with Lee Treble come about?

Arlene: Lee had heard me sing on Nerg’s “Alright” from Happy Hour. So he sent me some tracks and we took it from there. Also I would like to shout out GM (@gm518630) who mixed Twelve A.M. and also raps on “Stuck”.

Me: Excellent. Now the most compelling factor about Twelve A.M. is that the songs echoes real life situations especially listening to “All I Wanna”. That’s the type of song that will make you forget that you even had a bad day.

Arlene: That’s what we were aiming for. I wanted to reflect on real life situation that we all can relate to.

See these are the songs about life/Love and heartbreak/triumphs and the strife’s/the choices you made/and wish you had a do-over/and the beautiful days you wish you could do over – Nerd Ferg

Me: What makes a love so amazing?

Arlene: It’s hard to explain. With me, I can tell immediately if we will work or not. I try to look for someone that I can vibe with musically, comedic value is a plus. But one thing is that I never sing to someone that I’m in a relationship with because I know their views would be biased.

Me: Well there goes being serenaded during those late night. *both of us laughs* Now let’s talk about “Go” which is another favorite of a few listeners.

Arlene: Well basically that song is just talking about not being able to work it out. Since I’m getting older, it has to be other things like timing, outside influences, etc. It’s more
following your heart instead of your mind.

Me: That’s especially what we need as we get older. Now I don’t want to hold up to much more of your time, is there anything else that we can expect from you in the near future?

Arlene: Well there were other songs that didn’t make the EP and I am working on some brand new tracks as well. I’m also working with another rapper named Taeiom. He’s a pretty good rapper that people should keep an eye out for.

Me: Well Arlene, I think you again for taking time out to talk with me about your new project. Let’s do it again in the near future.

Arlene: No, thank you for being the first to interview me about my music. And we will do it again down the road.

Follow Arlene on Twitter. Download Twelve A.M. here.

I finally woke up after the crazy night at the club. The clock said 11:34am but it felt like I didn’t sleep much after entertaining my two guests. As I headed into the bathroom to freshen up, I look back at the bed where the two young ladies were still passed out.

“Damn. Things got a little out of hand.” I say to myself.

After my shower, I throw on some cargo shorts and black t-shirt that reads “Fight Me Bro”. I head down to the hotel restaurant to grab a bite to eat and I see young ladies stumbling out of Noah’s room. I walked past his door and he looked at me with a smile.

“Man last night was mad –“

I stopped him from finishing that statement. Bad enough mainstream media started using that line that Kanye coined and I was beyond tired of hearing it. I told him that I was heading down to get breakfast. He declined stating that he did all of his eating with the ladies that just left. I put my hands up and said that I’ll see him around. As I got on the elevator, I grabbed the local newspaper and looked at what was going on in the world. I turned the page and I came across the story about the wedding. What was going on here? In the article, it they got quotes from wedding guests who claim that it was just the most heartbreaking scene they’ve ever witnessed. They still don’t know the truth.

I reach the restaurant and order some scrambled cheese eggs with bacon, toast and some cranberry juice. As I’m enjoying my breakfast, I spot the young lady that threw her drink in my face last night at the club. Seems as if she was limbering up for a run on the beach and I was determined to make amends for the fool that I was last night. I paid my bill and jogged towards her on the beach. As I reached her, the bright smile she possessed turned into an evil frown.

“So what are going to tell me now, that I should allow my lips to surf on your face?”

“Listen about that in the club, I had a few drinks and I just came to apologize.”

“Sure thanks Mr. Sincere. I’ll be sure to make note of this wonderful moment.”

“Listen, I’m not that bad of a guy. How about I take this run on the beach with you to get to know you?”

She stood there in silence. I took a quick glance at her body. Her hair, chest, hips, ass all stood out in her five foot five frame. I was lost in thought when she snapped her fingers.

“See that’s the problem with you men. You act as if you haven’t seen a female with a nice body and all just think about lust like those wolves in the old cartoons.”

“I mean damn what do you expect? You expect us to ignore the fact that you have a nice body? It won’t happen.”

“Whatever you men are all the same.”

And before I could get another word in edgewise, she took off running. So I gave her a head start and then I took off after her. She noticed that I started to catch up to her so she sucked her teeth and picked up her speed. I was a tad bit faster than her so I ran up in front of her and started to jog backwards.

“How about we cut all of this chit chatter out and you have dinner with me later?”

I wasn’t paying attention so I didn’t notice that she stuck her foot out and I hit the sand. She laughed and came back over to me.

“Hmmm I’ll think about it. Next time don’t try to show off your top speed, Joker.”

She splashed a little water into my face and continued her run. I picked myself up off the wet sand and made my way back to the hotel. Noah was sitting at the bar with another young lady and I’m assuming that he saw me stumble and fall out there.

“It seems as if you’ll never learn that golden lesson out there brother.” He stated while eating his brunch.

I shrugged off his statement and headed back up to the room. I needed to find something to do with my day. I was thinking about going to work out or just go sightseeing. As I reached my room, I noticed the door was cracked open. At that moment, I remembered that I had left the two young ladies in their sleeping. So as I walked and in and stared to inspect the room. One of the young ladies came out of the bathroom and blew a kiss at me.

That was the last thing I saw as then my world went completely black.